I’ve written before about thinking about my life and where I’m going. And I’m back to thinking about it again. It’s been a month since my Grandma passed away and in a few days it’ll be a year since our son has. I’m thinking mostly about babies really. Plus my sister in law is due anytime in the next few weeks so I’m wondering when that baby will get here too!

Gang of kids – nephews and my own

I’m on course with school (in that I’ve contacted someone and need to get moving with figuring out what I need to do) and I’m on course with homeschooling (we’ve been going for a few weeks so far and it really is going so great). I could be doing better around the house 😉 but can’t everyone? I still haven’t gotten used to the small kitchen and know I need to because not only was our last house way too big but any house we’ll live in from now on will more then likely be around the size. So time to downsize or get super awesome at organizing! Probably a little bit of both.

I found a new way to make lists so of course the office supply geek in me was thrilled! I found todoodlist over the weekend and have written a few lists based off of it and am going to teach my kids how to use it. They are both list makers already (which makes me so happy!) – they usually write out a list of what we will do for the day, sometimes it includes the basics like getting dressed and breakfast and other times it’s what we are going to do when we leave the house. I think using this new method of writing a list will be fun for them.

It’s well know that I’m a list maker, are you?

And I always go back to thinking about babies. My feeling of my family being complete was so definite the second Jake was born. And I don’t have that anymore. I don’t know what will make me feel that way again but I’ve been desperately searching for it. I feel like I need to decide now, for a few reasons, and really just can’t. I almost just want someone to tell me what to do and their reasoning behind it. I’ve been trying this on my own – saying yes and why and then saying no and why. But I still don’t have that definite feeling I once did.

How did you decide how many kids you have?